Well a bit busy, or slack i might say on updating my blog lately...

Singapore idol didnt make it through again for da second time...
Haizz... well... nah, not hoping it much thou....
Are they looking for another Taufik or Hady?
Oh, ya, i forgot, they looking for the "PACKAGE"...
coz Singapore is too small, they can't just rely on just talents or showmanship or experience, you juz gotta have dat whole "PACKAGE" thingy...
well i can really understand that... And toodles for Singapore Idol. Not intending to join in near future anymore... :)


Look on the brighter side, i'm being invited by a fellow competitor back in STARDUST (few months ago) to perform for their yearly charity concert, they called themselves GFOs (will update more about it and link their website later on)...
COOL OR WAT?!!
so now kinda busy practising and jamming... yea.. jamming!! it's live band beb!!
and da song which i'm gona perform is "No Boundries" Adam Lambert version, but of coz la making it AiNUL's style!! yeah....


and my................
i don't know wheather it's a pleasant surprise or a nightmare that........
"he" called me......
after shuttig me out for 2 months....
GOSH!!
suddenly my world just swirl like a huge tornado!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAA!!
drastic rite...
but...................
yeah...................
that's how i am now.....
hmmmm.........................
SWiRLiNG....


Suddenly i asked myself...........
am i heartless??
am i bad??
am i inhumane???

but to think again he's da one who left me in da first place rite?
but y am i questioning myself now??
and F*CKiNG tears just welled up again....

it took me months numbing myself mending this stupid heart...
and POP here it comes and everything shattered again within minutes....

YES....
i do want answers...
i do try to HATE you...
i do... i do.... and i dooont know what else...!! coz i juz wana moooove on!!

i had stop questioning myself months ago.....
i had stop asking myself y....
or wat happen, even thinking "are you ok yet??"



BUT............
after that call............................
i questioned myself again...
"Do i really LOVE you, still..???"

but no matter what i know dat we can't be together....
i can roughly guezz dat wif no doubts...
and i understands that.....
it hurts thou...... it's my first......

but remains friends??
i don't mind.... :)
but do you??
but i need full explainations from you first, keep everything clear, to me k??
Crystal Clear...


GEESHH!!
i hate being an adult!!
so this is how love is yea...
haizz... watever...
i'm searching for a new one now.... thou it's not easy.... but nothing's easy rite?
the world is never fair.... Shit always happens...
but again, look on the bright side.......
everything happens for a reason.......
Just take this one as a blessing in disguise....
watever it is...
Let Time Heals Everything..

but again....
is there such thing as happily ever after??
can i have it??
i want it BADLY lah!! :(

Labels: GFOs, Mr Ex, sg idol, vitenam charity concert

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