The EN of ME

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

Well, here, i am updating ma blog again...
hehee...
well, i'm learning to appreciate my everyday life, trying to recall wat had happened and wat's going on.... wat can b improved on... u noe.... learn frm history kinda thing, hopefully for a better tmw.... u noe.....

As for werk, ppl cums and ppl goes...
and now one by one, been sended off to shanghai for events dere....
juz becoz i'm da only malay dere, it's kinda frustrating la...
no life, no gossip, so not happening sak.... i'm like so deprived like dat....
and i see no future dere oso....
haizz.... i love ma job, dat's for sure, as doing events and all, but i think dey lack of communication la, to think dat most of da tym dey will b speaking in mandarin, i'm totally lost everytym, and yea i noe, i've been labelled or seen as a "DUMB BLONDE" dere...
It so sucks la da feeling... Terrible!
Another thing, y i say dere's no future, coz i dun see maself as a 'somebody' dere yet...
i mean, dey told me on da first day dat i'll b given a mentor or dere will b sumone who will guide me for about two wks or so, to like so called make me familiarised with da job scope and all... but den to ma surprised, (dah takde guidance tu satu hal la eh) two of ma colleagues resigned juz after da end of da month, den ppl start cuming in and out, and do u noe who'll be guiding all diz freshies..? ME.. pathetic ryt, but true... isnt dat so ridiculous... I'd only werk for 2wks dat tym..

and i noe dat i've been labelled as "slow player' oso...
like DuH?!!
u tok different frequency ah beb...
ur concept and ma concept is so totally different...
and to think dat dere's about 4 designers (dat tym la) wat do u expect, all having da same style!
i mean i noe la we hav to b versatile and all, but we cant run away frm our style of doing things wat.. (artisans shud noe wadda hell i'm toking about..) and to think dat i hav to do a picture search for every design & no detail and specific instructions, isnt dat ridiculous to actually even start a design...
Eergh!!!

Seriously, for a true graphic designer, i dun think i'll go far if i were to stay dere, coz dere's no exposure la... pape design, company aku yg dpt credit, i mean, i'm not stucking up here, but if deir company kes mcm so wow... hmm.. like who ehk... well, juz take mediacorp la, u noe, or Lime Megazine or wat....

HaiZz, it's super saddening la..... i intend to continue study but for now, with dat super pathetic amount of pay i got every month, it's only enuff for ma everyday expenses....

Eergh!!
think i shud start sending resumes frm now....

Other den werk...

hmm.....
i got 3 kisses on da cheek frm him yesterday....
hehee... it's kiut thou...
and den he remind me dat "tmw" which is today la is our 2nd week officially together...
i was like, u keep track uh....
Aww... a guy who keep track of da counting thingy....
Swit!
hmm... i'm learning still..... Hoping..... Expecting...
it might blossom into a beautiful bright lively roses which make ppl envy with awe yet attracted to it exotic sweet smelling aura of adoration...

WAT DA FUCK SIAH!!
ader makne tak..??
aku bace2 balek, mcm takde makne seyk....
pape la ehk...
kLau bermakne korng bLang aku ehk...
if not aku delete tu part pasal takde maknyenye aku tarok pat sini, buat malu jek...
kwang..kwang..kwang..... hehehee...

MiSsing u gerLss!!! ;)

- eyEzZy Nu ~ 10:16 PM.

Sunday, April 8, 2007

Been supperrrr buuuzzzzzyyyyy lately.... (heheheee...well...)

Well, actually sumthing struct me to like update ma blog today...

Been wif him for hmm... think abt 2 weeks for now i guezz.. hehee...
but den only today diz qns pops in ma head...
"WAT MAKES ME WANT HIM..." or "WAT ATTRACTS ME TO HIM"
i was like rewinding and rewinding, thinking of wat was it huh....
seriously i dun hav a concrete reason for now,
but wat i noe now, is dat i'm happy when i'm wif him... comfortable... and no RuShing.. if u noe wat i mean....

den rewind....rewind to how i accept him....
hmmmmm.... dat night... on da fon......
well, casual talking.... like other normal nights..... juz dat wheni told him dere's sum1(whom he actually know) who asked me out for a date, he's was like, "so wat about "us"... yada..yada..yada..... it's kinda touchy2 thingy la, wat i think la... and wat i remember was he saying...
"ok la, a man gota do wat a man gotta do... And you're now ma gurl... dah..." and he do it very da 'selambe' ly..well actually i think it took him quite a courage dere to say dat out... hahaa!!
i was like... "hmm...ouh k..." and dat' how it is...

den forward.....forward back......
as wat i was saying, wat makes me so sure abt him...
frankly, if one glance, he's not really ma type..
den, he into heavy metal core rock...
he dun really hav da expected height dat i was looking for.....
he kadang2 look slenge pon ader... Oopss!! slenge ehk...
well, dat's not really da problem la coz dat wat makes him special.... and oh..... shud i say diz out.... k la... CUTE.. and plus his "R-karat" thingy going on... hahaa!! hmm.. hehee..
aww... hahahaa!! watever.... aint nobody's perfect yea...
da thing is dat, i still hav doubt and yeah uncertainties....
like " y me"... "he like ma character? attitude..??" .... "dat's all...??".... "izit...??" "not becoz of ma assets huh..??...
u noe, dose thousand and one qns about "y he chooses me" dat kinda thing....

hmmm.... watever la ehk.....
i try to put dat aside and go wif da flow....
at least he's not dat sot of guy if u noe wat i mean... ermm....ya la, so far, soo very good... for diz 2weeks or so... hahaa!!
but he did sound serious when he want me thou... dat tym la.... hmmm....
well,
i'm juz happy dat he appreaciate me for who i am, and i'm being loved by sumone who appreciate me...
i'm still learning thou..... not to appreciate or accepting him, coz i had already gone thru dat phase, juz to understand each other better.. hmm... it's dat da thing??... understands... hmm.. and yea finding da answer to all ma doubts, queries, uncertainties dan tg sewaktu degn nye la...

but to think bout it kan, it's kinda cool la, mat rocker & minah hip hop...
hahaa!!
very contradicting kan...
hehee...
haiZzz...
LiFe....

nytzz sweetheartzZz...
MiSs u gerls terribly,terribly bad... esp sha & ween!! :)

- eyEzZy Nu ~ 11:19 PM.