Hehehee...
yeLah.. tadi aku moan and groan....

i forgot to put diz in...

Well, i was like on ma MSN..

den diz fren of myn.. ( a guy fren of myn)
-->> we were like chatting, for a while coz he was sick....
chat punye chat...
suddenly he state " i dont abhor u..." ( as who noes ma MSN i put ::to adore or abhor me:: ryt?)
den i was like, WAT?!! (hahaha!! ketetelan kuz pon menjadi-jadi la..)
den tanpa segan silu dan merasa malu.. i asked him la... "so u adore me la ehk...?"
he replied... "who noes.." (WahAhHAahaha!!!!.... wadda hell.....!!! k..k.. maintain ehk.... but still dat doesnt mean anything kan.... coz he did say he likes ma art work... so ya la, i dun wana get overly excited yet....)

so wat shall i called him ehk....
ermm.... let's call him well give a name la ehk....
called him... tick-Geek..
ok go... HAhHaaa!!


haiyo... giler la aku kan..... wat to do.....
NytzZ ppl!!

Well....
hmm....
i duno wat's playing ard in ma head ryt now.....

Alhamdullilah...
i gotta job now....
As an event artist...

We did hav a CNY reunion dinner kinda stuff dat last fri...
yea, quite fun la... it's just dat mayb i juz started werk 2 days, and da awkward feeling is still dere... but still, of coz la, how hard i try to be maself oso, it's not dat easy....

I noe diz job is like super COOL... and i'm dying to get it....
but sumthing juz, sum things keeps bothering me....


K well, i'm bout to spill it wat's been bothering me:---

i noe, i want diz job, coz i noe, i'll b loving wat i'll b doing... (which is doing events, design stuffs, meeting ppl and all etc..etc..) and i noe da strezz load i will b facing...
but den again... i'll b going back hm like 7pm everyday... and if dere's events on weekends, i particularly hav no tym for ma self.. (as in spending tyms wif ma gerlfrenz.. or going out wif sha like i used to, or even wif ila...) i dun really noe wassup wif me....
Ader keje susah... takde susah....
mayb wat's bothering me is weather i got to go for blind dates anymore or not... (i duno la... yah.. it sounds super stupid ryt... i noe... wana noe y....)

coz...
KEMENTOT dah mcm siak...
senyap... k fine...i dun wana bother... buat sakit ati sak....

'DL'-->> watever la.. no komen....

den dere diz one "RT"...
he's kinda too mature for me ( i think, particularly 10yrs ma senior la beb...)
but he's swit la (not looks of coz, if not i dun mind sak die senior ker tak! mcm sial kan aku... hahaha!!)
and he start toking bout proposing and all.... and i was like HAiYOo!!.... puhlease la...
(i feel bad sak.... like wadda hell wrong wif me.... y am i so suuuperr duupperr CEREWET ah....)

den another one..
Hmm... let's kol him "LQ"..
well.....
he's a super slow mover...
well, it's not dat i'm not ok wif it....
it's juz dat, i prefer to make it fast... u noe, go straight to da point...
( coz to think dat he has a fren who's been calling me dat tym, contacting me and all and diz fren of his will always talk bout diz "LQ", good and bad stuffs bout him.. & he sound as if both of dem were like trying to woo me kinda thing... ya..ya... watever... he suddenly stops when diz "LQ" hav been actively msging and calling me... like wadda hell... we r only frenz pe.... y muz he stay away kan.. So CHILDISH!)
seriously i'm still clueless bout him....
but sumhow, it's cool, to think dat he'll call me at least once everyday.... (mcm pena dengar kan... dejavu..?? pape la... dat's y i dun wana jump into conclusion..)
well, at least it's good la, to take it slow.. like ma dear sha says, cepat2 nt dat good, he will get bored after dat... (iye ker... mcm mengarotz kan.... kLau dah suke same suker, haizz, mengarotz la dunia nie.....)

Well,
mayb u guyz who read diz will b like...
si eyEzZy ni, mcm2 jantan die kenal ehk tu pon tak puas ker...

abeh dah ader keje bising.. takde keje pon kecoh...
ape jek si eyEzZy ni nak tau....


i duno la peeps...
weather u hav diz in ur head... or it's juz me being pesimistic..

seriously when it comes to guys..
i can get super cerewet... SUPPERLY CEREWET...!!
but i'm kinda desperate actually...
but dat still doesnt mean i can like go for anyone....

den bout work....
i was like...
haizz...
i shall hav to like sacrifice ma tym, ma freedom, and MASELF...
i duno la....

To make matter worst....
ma confidence is super...super LOW ryt now coz of me gaining weight....
SUCKS siah!!!
nak join singing comp pon takde mood tau....


HAaaaiiizzzzzzz.........

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