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The EN of ME

Friday, January 11, 2008

Hur..hur..hur....
i'm sick again.....
and i'm having diz Talenquest competition thingy diz SUNDAY!!
how bad can dat be....
Geesh!

Life is so damn bloody sucks!
especially when sumthing nice happening to me, dere's sure sumthing to cock it up...

Well, Muharram (it's da new yr for Muslim ppl) just past few days ago...
my mom still keep nagging as usual...
i duno wat's wrong wif dem... or mayb wif me...
but...
i duno...

sumtimes i wonder who am i living for...?
GOD? my mother? my father? my granny? my FAMiLY? my whole entire relatives...??
y can't i just choose wat i want and how my life gonna be wif directions frm god(Allah) without ppl direct me wat and how to do it.... i mean 'He' da BiG BOSS ryt? and "He" dun FORCE! but y r dey?!!

it's so fucking fuck up...
like as if dey noe wat's good for me....
But as u (peeps who noes me) noe, wat had dey done to make ME PROUD.. ? (i'm toking bout me, to hell with wat kind of thing which makes dem proud... i dun think dey are proud of me in any where either..) ZiLCH!!! and watever i do to makes me happy is all by ME!!

I juz need my SUPERMAN to save me and take me away frm all diz nonsense dat i'm stucked wif...

i'm sorry, if i sound so stuck up in diz entry... well, i am...!
i'm juz sad, depressed, y cant my parents be proud of wat i hav, and be supportive of it...
Da fact is, dey noe i'm bloody good at it... den y hide it.... Eeergh!!!
y cant dey be happy when i'm happy!!
it's ironic isnt it.....

And most of da times i do feel like i'm born in a wrong family...
like my mom and dad are sum other souls out dere...
sum happening ppl... who maybe had thrown me to both of my boring parents coz dey are to bz wif deir own life...
haha!! i duno...
haiz..(astagfirwa'al'azim)


Well, still....
aku redha..
wat else can i do, den just bersabar and bersujud kepadaNya...
Kerana Dia maha mengetahui, maha mengasihi, maha segala-galanya...
Amin...


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