The EN of ME

Saturday, September 12, 2009

THAT'S GONA BE DA LAST ONE....

Am sorry baby,
We both feel it, we both have it...
and we both too, confused and hanging....

it's not your fault,
you do have your rights....
i shudnt be annoyed...
as we both are solo and unattached...

but sumhow or rather i duno why it hurts inside....

BEFORE,
u give me the honour to give the approval to when we can start a relationship..
BUT LATER DEN,
u disappoint me when u confesses that "lemme tell you when it's ready to move on to da nxt step"

the truth hurts.....

had sensed those surreal feeling that we first had was deteriorating...
i told myself "mayb he's just too bz rite now, give him space won't you..."

but again,
last night tells it all...

your sweet words, thoughts, and actions...
is it genuine?
do u use "dat" to every lady u've known??
or was it just a fallacy of my own mind...?

baby.....
i know that i had told u dat i'm a skeptic and a very doubtful person...

but i don't wana end it juz yet....
i don't want dose dat we had as momentary glimpse for me....

but again,
i don't know what's ur feeling towards me right now....
are we still da "weird couple" dat u have had said before??

i'm really tired of hoping, searching and looking....
guess i better concentrate on stabilizing myself and my passion...

And as for you baby,
last night gona be our last........

unlessss............

miracles happens?
if GOD permits....?
or if i'm in my fickle state?
or u suddenly pop out in front of me.. *hehehee*

*sigh*

well, i'm still curious wif wat can happen to us baby....
maybe.... just maybe.... coz my liking for you had grown to feeling of LOVE??

i'm screwed.....

- eyEzZy Nu ~ 11:19 AM.

Sunday, September 6, 2009

It's a dead end!!
It's totally SUCKS!!
times like this i just feel like my whole life is a total wreck!!!

It's damn hard to get a new job!
and i'm desperately NOW!! WANT A NEW JOB!!
a STABLE one!! Wif CPF!! BONUSES!! BENEFITS!!
Damn!!
i juz need that fucking one more 'O' level credits to actually qualify for ANY kind of gvt job...
and pathetically, to make things worst, despite of not spending 3yrs in poly, my design diploma was not frm NAFA or LASALLE either, in another word, it's unknown... -.-
KNN!!!

*who's to blame?????!!!*

i'm not getting younger now, and this is really a DAMN bloody big issue for me now!!
shud i pursue studying? (but wher da hell can i get the money??!!) or juz get any random job which pays me better??

FUCKED!!!
i'm totally pissed now...

i want A JOOOOBBBB!!!!!!!!!!!

*help?*

- eyEzZy Nu ~ 9:02 PM.