The EN of ME

Tuesday, December 4, 2007

....BOREDOM iS KiLLING ME SOFTLY....

had been almost 9 days i'm here in NTU doing this exhibition; "The Way of Asian Design" which in partnership with Singapore Design Festival.
I've got no idea why my big boss choose NTU of all places to set up the exhibition.

First:
-it was far..... damn bloody far...... very very far..
try to imagine, if i were to take cab frm central, it already cost ard 15-20 bucks. How far dat can be if i were to take cab frm ma place.

Second:
-it was boring! damn bloody boring.... very very da boring.....
i have to sit in da exhibition room (a glass room sort of ) looking out through the glass outside with nothing to see only da empty road, da empty rooms, da empty pond.. (how patehtic dat can be!)

Thirdly:
when boredom struck, my minds start to wander.....
and it always wander to da bad ol days or da bad days, or juz about my patehtic life which will always without fail spoils ma bloody already boring day....

and to make matter worst, i'm here all alone today, as ma colleague cum ex-classmate is sick and unable to so called accompany and entertained ma nonsense today....

Haizzz.....

but den i realise sumthing which i can say sort of a miracle happenings...
i DUN MiND BEiNG ALONE! ( i dun complain y ma bf didnt called me, my gerls are too busy, y bad things always happen to me yada yada yada...)
in fact, i'm kinda loving it diz way...
to ma surprise also, i can even go for lunch alone! (which i rarely or hate doing it)
hahaha!
but den wait...................

GEESH!!!
am i turning into a boring person...?!!
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Oh no i don't tink so...
maybe it's ma confidence level or let's juz say ma maturity had gone one level up again....
hehehe...

hmmm....
and ya,
to think again, it's ma life after all, and i'm da one controlling it.
So wat if it's a boring place, etc..etc....

Although i keep on irritate ma colleague cum ex-classmate,
"They shud have an amusement park here! Or at least a playground for us!"
heheheee... i noe, i sounds crazy.. but seriously dey shud work hard and play hard too, no play is so no, no...

k, back to da topic,
so instead of me complaining bout how bored (but it is man!! i duno how da hell student survive dere!!) i told myself to look on da bright side, happy tots, happy tots....

(guess being alone make me tink super alot yea... hehe... dun mention, it happens EVERYTiME!)

da food is cheap, it's quite serene, most of da ppl dere are geeks and out-of-fashion which automatically makes me da ehem... da most fashionable one..
hahaha!!
and when i'm bored i go "shopping" as da "shopping centre" dere is quite cheap too!!
(hehehee, i'm so in ma own world now, it's actually a supermarket cum groceries store, u can find almost everything dere, cheap!)

So dat's how it's gona be, till da 8th of December 2007..
I'm so missing da fun at da other Design show...
haizz...

kk, trying to tink positive again...
it's not dat easy k...

Haizz...
Eeergh!!

- eyEzZy Nu ~ 3:05 PM.

Sunday, December 2, 2007

Hav u ever wonder,
if u're at your very climax state of anything;
doesnt matter if you're tired, excited, bored or even angry......
you tend to wish, hope, crave.....
u feel sumthing's amiss, so much desiree for sumthing which sum times even impossible or out of da world......
den.....

u minds tends to wander.......

if only ur bf cud b wif u 24/7 spending every little time together,
if only ur best buddies is always dere to hav fun together, da gossiping, da all hearty out thingy, da sisterhood, or baldiz we usually say.......

Or wif juz his hugs & kisses and his special sumthing which will eases da stress away....
And how u wish all diz happens without u needing to tell dem wat to do, asking for it, needing to be qns and answered wif yes and no coz it kinda sucks big time sumtyms.....

Y cant it juz happen like a miracle...

Or or, mayb a surprise mayb?
I dun mind being a follower althou i used to be da lead or cheap kadam last time, missing dat badly actually... hehe but i dun mind thou seriously, be a gentle leader of coz....

*sigh*
i'm damn fucking tired.......

and well, i can't cover ma alter ego no more,
it's not like usually i used to say or always make myself to belief dat mayb or i guezz or i think i'm missing him....
but i think....
geesh well....

i'M missing him bloody damn LOADS!!....
i guezz...
haha!! geesh, quit denying bimbo!
haizz......if only........ if only he noes.........
hehehee....
i'm tired la.....

miss u ma beau...
mmuacks....

- eyEzZy Nu ~ 9:34 PM.