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hahahahaa!!
damn!! i have soo many things in my head, it's not bout i duno where to start...
but as soon as i wana start typing....... my brain becomes completely blank!!
klakar seram kan...
haizz...
but all i noe now, i don't think i'm in my good mood...
i get cranky every now and den... emo, and head-spins too...
high-blood pressure ker...??
and getting quite forgetful sumtimes too...
Aiyo!!
i really need a BREAK from everything...
totally EVERYTHiNG!!!
*sigh*
- eyEzZy Nu ~ 10:47 PM.
Saturday, September 19, 2009
SALAM LEBARAN MiNAL AiDiLWALFA'iZIN,
MAAF ZAHiR & BATiN.... ;)a month ago, i'm so freaking excited..
can't wait for "Syawal" to come..
and as "Syawal" came today, i'm so reluctant to celebrate and have fun with it...i wonder why.... :(
Wat's wrong wif me...
or....
wat's wrong wif "HiM"
it's FREAKiNG WEiRD on how just a "ONE STOOPiD PERSON" cud change da entire feeling and emotions dat you have towards something.. in fact everything...
"i will not give in this time...."
- eyEzZy Nu ~ 11:34 PM.
Saturday, September 12, 2009
THAT'S GONA BE DA LAST ONE....Am sorry baby,We both feel it, we both have it...and we both too, confused and hanging....it's not your fault,you do have your rights....i shudnt be annoyed...as we both are solo and unattached...but sumhow or rather i duno why it hurts inside....BEFORE,u give me the honour to give the approval to when we can start a relationship..BUT LATER DEN,u disappoint me when u confesses that "lemme tell you when it's ready to move on to da nxt step"the truth hurts.....had sensed those surreal feeling that we first had was deteriorating...i told myself "mayb he's just too bz rite now, give him space won't you..."but again,last night tells it all...your sweet words, thoughts, and actions...is it genuine?
do u use "dat" to every lady u've known??or was it just a fallacy of my own mind...?baby.....i know that i had told u dat i'm a skeptic and a very doubtful person...but i don't wana end it juz yet....i don't want dose dat we had as momentary glimpse for me....but again,i don't know what's ur feeling towards me right now....are we still da "weird couple" dat u have had said before??i'm really tired of hoping, searching and looking....guess i better concentrate on stabilizing myself and my passion...And as for you baby,last night gona be our last........unlessss............miracles happens?if GOD permits....?or if i'm in my fickle state?or u suddenly pop out in front of me.. *hehehee**sigh*well, i'm still curious wif wat can happen to us baby....maybe.... just maybe.... coz my liking for you had grown to feeling of LOVE??i'm screwed.....
- eyEzZy Nu ~ 11:19 AM.
Sunday, September 6, 2009
It's a dead end!!It's totally SUCKS!!times like this i just feel like my whole life is a total wreck!!!It's damn hard to get a new job!and i'm desperately NOW!! WANT A NEW JOB!!a STABLE one!! Wif CPF!! BONUSES!! BENEFITS!!Damn!!i juz need that fucking one more 'O' level credits to actually qualify for ANY kind of gvt job...and pathetically, to make things worst, despite of not spending 3yrs in poly, my design diploma was not frm NAFA or LASALLE either, in another word, it's unknown... -.-KNN!!!*who's to blame?????!!!*
i'm not getting younger now, and this is really a DAMN bloody big issue for me now!!shud i pursue studying? (but wher da hell can i get the money??!!) or juz get any random job which pays me better??
FUCKED!!!i'm totally pissed now...i want A JOOOOBBBB!!!!!!!!!!!*help?*
- eyEzZy Nu ~ 9:02 PM.
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
RELIEVED.........(tu lah org ckp sabar, sabar..... tak reti2... wakakakakaa!!! ;p)
- eyEzZy Nu ~ 2:11 PM.
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
i juz feel like blogging but i duno wat to blog...hahahaa!! **blonde moments**there are too many things going on, and i duno wher to start....firstly,thank god, i HAVE move on...(coz he still drinks dammit!! OMFG!!... speechless yet smiling sheepishly...)
secondly...
searching drastically for a new JOB!!!THirDLy.....searching for true, stable, satisfied, long-lasting, relationship or also known as LOVE...i really duno where, how, when to start....EEEERRGGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!
- eyEzZy Nu ~ 9:29 PM.
it's hella roller-coaster ride for the past 2weeks...
happy-confused-high-sad-clueless-eager-agitated-anxious-mundane-lethargic-down.....
yeah, it's kinda too fast to predict....
it's kinda too fast to judge anything.....
in fact practically, it's tooooo damn fast to be happy or satisfied bout it coz it's totally insane!!
totally stooopid!!!
totally ridiculous for me to think it will work out in da first place....
despite da surreal feeling and dat tingling sensation everytime he txted me since da first meet up...
GOSH!! honestly it's totally unexplainable.............. (in a good way... dat's da sucky part!!)
Although it's not "finalize" yet, although there's still hope, although this and dat.........
it's still a 50/50 thing which me, being a skeptical and a pessimistic biatch cudnt resist of thinking dat wat if it's not meant to be...... Eeergghh!!! this is totally and absolutely ANNOYING!!!
and my job is killing me inside day by day....
those ppl drive me INSANE!!!!!
frm da head, to da assistant, well in fact the whole family associates wif dem all!!
do this and dat, discounts here and dere... WDF??!!
charity work keper??
so now, wat i need most is MY STABILITY, den can proceed to my LOVE life and so on....
but it's just so hard to concentrate and focus now....
damn...
**txt him while typing halfway thru my blog...
now i'm totally clueless to wat i am towards him....
da hot kisses had become more than dat now....
so am i juz dat "sumone" or a sumone which he actually really wana work things out...
Eeerghh!! this is so unnecessary for my braincells!! FUCKED!!!
Ouh... another thing...
mantan ku sudah ada pacar baru lagi sih....
Nyahahahahaa!!!
seriously not bothered, juz being me-kaypo!! ;p
- eyEzZy Nu ~ 8:44 PM.
