The EN of ME

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

I think i shall stop blogging bout him...
The more i blog bout him, the more i hate him (or maybe i'm just trying to hate him),
the more i misses him...
that's not wat i planned...
i'm moving on....
(well, if it's true that he started dating, why shudn't i.. haha)

As wat i strongly believe..... i believe he is a nice guy...
A guy who noes wat he's doing...
but what i can't accept is, y must he not tell ppl bout the real thing..
y must he put up a strong front everytime shit happens...??
doesnt he noes dat he's a normal human being too?
(stop thinking that u some kind of superhuman k, u will fall one day too, sooner or later, and it's nothing wrong to let it out...)
does his friends thinks i'm da bad one? or he's da bad one??
coz i dun think anyone of us is at fault...

Well,
i'm tired....
Waiting for my answers....
i think da best way now,
to let this matter rest in peace till the time comes to unravel the best of it...

As for now,
i'm living my life to the fullest....
Thank you for the experience, the love, the bittersweet memories that we had....
i'm really honoured, to have that one lifetime experience, to be shared with you..
(count the gifts that u had give me... think that proves it alls.... thank you, Mr J)

Now...
i realise, i can become more me without him, more outspoken coz i dun need to think wat will he think bout me, and this is sumthing good, a catalyst for me to move on, an enthusiasm to spur me on, and i have to move fast as not to lost this momentem, coz the heart's pounding real fast, excited for the change within......

Labels: a new me, lifetime experience

- eyEzZy Nu ~ 7:29 AM.